OK so I really hate telling people this because of the judgments I am bound to recieve, but this is my blog and I really am excited!!
I will start from the beginning. I have a friend, Bryan, who has been my BEST friend for about a year and a half or so, I have been REALLY good friends with his mom as well. I have had a secret crush on him for about a year and a half but I obviously was with my ex and could not do anything about that. I remember the time when I first started liking him, was when it was just he and I at my apartment and he was cleaning!! I just thought that was amazing because my BF at the time would not even do that!! Anyway, I was miserable with my ex, and I was only laughing and smiling with I was with Bryan. Bryan told his mom that he was waiting for my ex to screw up and to be the one to make me smile, he could not stand seeing me so miserable day after day, it KILLED him. So, we have been dating, I tried SO hard not to fall in love with him, because I was so scared of getting hurt, but it happened anyway. This is the first man that I have been with that does not send up any red flags, he makes me happier than I have been in years! He says that he wishes so badly that my son was his and not my ex's. He wants to adopt the baby so that he won't ever have to be without a dad, and if something were to happen to me than Bryan would get the baby, not my ex.
Anyway long story short, we want the baby to have his last name from the get go so that there isn't a name change issue, and we know that we want to get married, and waiting won't change our feelings, so we set a date (well not exact) MIDDLE OF OCTOBER!!! I know it is soon, but I really feel that this is right, I know that this is right, and I am happy! I worry that people think I am doing this just because I need a baby daddy, or whatever, but I really feel this is right for my son and ...... I AM GETTING MARRIED!!!!!!!!!!
I was tagged by http://roguemidwife.blogspot.com/
So now I am supposed to give all of you eight things you MAY not know about me! Here are the rules for being tagged:RULES - Post rules before giving the facts - Players start with eight random facts/habits about themselves - People who are tagged need to write their own blog about their eight things and post these rules - At the end of the your blog you need to tag six people and list their names - Leave them a comment on their blog, telling them they have been tagged and not to forget to read your blog.
1) I am really good at finding out information for people when they can't.
2) I fell out of love with my ex and did not want to be with him about a year before he left me, and everyday I wonder why I was so stupid as to stay with him. (mind you I don't regret anything and love my son more then anything and would not change that for the world)
3) I am not a sensitive person, when someone cries or is hurt I honestly don't know what to do. I am more sensitive with children, obviously.
4) I have all of one friend and people always think that I am just saying that to gain sympathy but it is very true and I don't want sympathy
5) It makes me sad that everyone says that I need to make this time in my life before the baby comes about me, but yet I have nothing that I enjoy doing and nobody to share it with.
6) I am not scared about the birth, or taking care of the baby in the least bit.
7) I think that I have a secret crush on my best friend, but am not quite sure
8) I love to act, and write stories/books
OK well even though I have known this for a long while I just thought I would confirm every one's suspicions.......there is a penis!! It is a boy, he has both of his testicles and everything! I am glad that my mom didn't wind up right and it be a girl, because I honestly don't want a girl, at all!
So now it is name time, I thought about the name Zayden but I have definitely changed my mind, so it is back to square one.....
OK so my puppy has gotten really bad with her barking problem and I had enough of it today. She has gotten to the point that when she barks I cannot catch her, yell at her or anything to get her to stop. So this morning was the last straw, I woke up to her barking (of course) at nothing, and I got dressed and rushed to Petsmart to get a no bark collar. I know that some of you might think that to be mean or whatever, but when you are in my situation you would do the same. It's not that she is barking to guard, it's that she is barking because she is anxious and when she barks she barks at nothing, and for a long time. She will not let me get near her, she will not listen or anything! So when I got home I put the collar on and to make sure that it worked, my mom rang the doorbell, she barked, but only once, and freaked out trying to bite at her neck. Then I needed her to bark again just to make sure that this collar wasn't going to malfunction or something and she would NOT bark (until Diesel barked that is!) This time she yelped and ran away. I felt so bad but at least it was working. Here is the thing though, the whole day she would not come when she was called, she hid under the table with her tail between her legs. She would not come to any of us and just was miserable, but when the cable guy came, she did not bark, when she is outside she doesn't bark, so I guess I have to train her to not be scared, which is easier then teaching her not to bark......
Well I now understand why people say that you lose your sense of balance in your third trimester. Yesterday, while my mom was at the Chiropractor and I was watching the girls, I fell down the stairs! Yes, that's right folks, down the stairs! My sisters of course witnessed it all and Allison was freaking out, and Lydia kept on saying, "I will kiss it". I could not move at all and my mom was not answering the phone, and Lydia had to go potty...... great, just great. Finally my mom answered the phone and came to the rescue. Luckily I fell on my back/butt, so nothing was wrong baby wise, I was just essentially immobile. I am fine, don't worry, I just have probably the biggest blackest bruise ever on my left butt!! Attractive, I know.